I like to talk about the things close to my heart. This blog & website are a lot of that. Love. Creating new directions. Those are all things that are great an awesome. But every now and then something touches me in a different way. A lot of times these instances are the ones that get “edited” from social media. That’s okay I don’t think we should talk about EVERYTHING to EVERYONE. But what I do want to encourage that we talk about the serious, emotional side with those who we trust. And I want to show people it’s okay to be “emotional”.
Recently I have felt very compelled to talk. To say something. I almost feel obligated to. The death of Chester Bennington of Linkin Park hit me hard when I saw the news. I would listen to Linkin Park so much when I was a kid. That was the first CD that I owned. Yeah I didn’t understand fully what the lyrics meant at the time. I don’t think a lot of us understood them as we do now. But that music was something I could relate to. I think that on some level we all relate. That’s what music does for us. It helped me get through tough times of the everyday struggles growing up as an adolescent.
When I saw the news a few days ago I was moved more than I anticipated. Thats not the right word, because we never “anticipate” something like this happening. But I was moved very deeply. So naturally like a lot of us probably have been doing, I flicked through my phone and put their entire collection in my phone on shuffle.
The raw authenticity of his voice, of their lyrics, was so clear to me. There is a beauty in it that you can’t really articulate. You just have to feel it.
So what I am leading up to is this. Depression & anxiety are very heavy words. For those who haven’t been there it can bring about a kind of pulling away response. Like “That’s definitely not me, and I don’t want to get anywhere near it” sort of thing.
Well I want to do the opposite. We have all felt sad. We have all been nervous. Anxious. Despair. Shame. Guilt.Lonely. Loss. And on and on. Let’s stop acting like we don’t. That is part of what makes us human.
That is okay. It is okay to feel those things. And even more, it is okay to talk about them. It’s important that we do talk about it we those we love. That part is hard. And scary. But fear is just another one of those emotions that we all feel too. So you are not alone.
My heart goes out to Chester, his family, friends & the lives just like mine that he touched. He inspired me to not be ashamed of what I felt and to create the art that inspires me.